When I was in middle school, I began asking deeper and deeper questions about God. I had been given a Bible, which I revered greatly, but I didn’t really understand it, although I loved the psalms and parts of Isaiah.
Every evening when I was a young child, my mom would recite the Lord’s Prayer and a little poem I later discovered had been written by Mary Baker Eddy called “Mother’s New Year Gift to the Little Children” (see Poems, p. 69). I loved this, but otherwise I was left to seek answers on my own.
During this time, I began playing the violin, and I loved it so much that I went to a summer music camp. At this camp we lived in cabins, and one of my cabin mates became a friend, who one day said something about a religion I knew nothing about. She told me that when she was born, it appeared that she had been stillborn, but her parents had prayed and she had lived. She also shared that she had been healed of eyesight difficulties without medical treatment. She explained that these healings had come about because of the ideas in a book called Science and Health with Key to the Scriptures by Mary Baker Eddy.
As I sat next to her asking questions about all this, I looked out over the hillside and had a vision I will never forget of the world from a higher perspective—and this perspective gave me an inkling of the allness of God, Spirit. I saw clearly that there were infinite possibilities I had never imagined……
After I went home, I begged my mom to take me to the branch Church of Christ, Scientist, in our town that my friend attended. I started attending Sunday School there, where I spent the hour peppering the teacher with questions.
The answers he shared each week opened my thought to the rock-solid, immediately applicable expanse of God’s love, and this so fully satisfied and deeply blessed me that my demeanor of glumness and depression changed to one of joy and happiness…..
I’m still asking questions, but more and more I just ask God and study Science and Health, other writings by Mrs. Eddy, and of course the Bible, letting them speak the answers to my heart. What a sense of peace these answers bring! They are deep and broad, healing the heart’s great needs.
